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Becoming Intermittent

6/28/2017

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I've been slow to post these weeks. Erratic on this blog and on social media. 
This is intentional, so I can focus on my work and life with more attention.
Today I head out on a two week adventure with my life-love to California.
San Francisco and the Central Coast.
I plan to be even more erratic in talking about what I'm doing and how I'm doing it.
So I can do (and not do) with more fullness while I'm away.
It's funny, that desire to apologize for not being present everywhere, everywhen.
Available to talk about all the things I'm doing as I'm in process.

But now, as I'm working on a new play, continuing a larger screenplay, co-creating a new performance with Migration Theory and teaching teaching teaching and preparing for a new job where I'll be teaching teaching teaching, all my social media activity, including this process blog, is getting in the way of my process.

I'm not pulling out completely from everything internet (except over these next two weeks), but now and come future I'm allowing myself to be more sporadic. And I'm all the happier for it. More productive, balanced and sustainable. 

I look forward to sharing with you what's happening (and how and why I'm doing what I'm doing) when it feels relevant to my work and life. When it feels helpful to me and maybe to you. I will likely find more of an Anne Bogart blog posting schedule than an Austin Kleon newsletter schedule. 

Thanks for understanding, for reading, for being, for doing what you do best. 
Whatever that best may be for you, keep doing it in the way that suits you best. 
With kindness and gratitude at the heart of it all, perhaps.

Which is what I want to send you.

All my gratitude,

H
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And by ocean I'll recharge my torch light. Photo: Kevin Finneran
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Shine the Light

6/16/2017

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I found this in a notebook I kept a couple years ago, writings during a fantastic workshop by a teaching artist specializing in Hip Hop Foundations for youth classes.

Shine the Light

​I find the more I teach, the more I learn.
I like what comes from the word facilitator.
I don't like to call myself a teacher.
The closest I get is teaching artist, teaching writer.
Because of how much I learn from my students. My friends. Colleagues. The world.

I love this act of discovering,
Learning something new every day about space, time, me, you, family, us.
I don't always like what I learn but I like the light shone on this new bit of globe.
I want to share my process,
As much as I want to share my work,
As much as I want to travel and make new work.
If I could bring in that journey, my journey, learn yours,
We can share space together
In an attempt to figure out what we as an us have to say,
And what we can do about the struggle,
About the ugly, and find the beauty,
And mirror each other on this path to deeper understanding.

Slash. Span continents. All the self. 
As knowledge as possible.
We as in us have to say. 
I like that comes out.
Space time me you family.
What good is telling them about
My love if I give love.

So that someone can give it back to me.
Keep an open mind.
Allow yourself to be excited.
Pretending that you know what you're doing. 
It's a big teaching summer for me, one looking forward to brand new teaching experiences in the fall (to be announced soon...), so I'm glad to find these words now. Whatever they are -- process writing, poetic material, working notes, they pull me back to the core of what makes teaching a fueling part of my creative process.  
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Photo by Devon Janse van Rensberg
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Drop In Writing Workshop June 2017

6/10/2017

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Images Out of Thought into Meaning

This week, we created powerful pieces out of image banks based on abstract words.
 
Warmup 
 
I’d like us to start today by writing, in list form, in free form, however works best for you, all of the images from your day, from the moment you got up to this moment.

Warming up the mind/heart/body/spirit in this way, writing without stopping, and without a lot of talk or explanation, about everything you’ve seen, heard, tasted, felt, smelled, experienced, noticed. Be specific and go deep into each moment as much as you dare. Show us your day from your perspective, as though you carried around a video recorder from the moment you woke, one that captures all the senses and has a perfect memory.
 
Read 

How did that go? Let’s keep those detailed, concrete images swimming through our consciousness as we read Mary Oliver's essay from Upstream, Bird. Pay attention to what you notice, what words or phrases stand out, and especially what sensory images hit your gut and skin. Read it out loud if possible. 
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Photo by Victoria Alexander.

Bird
by Mary Oliver

"The light of the body is in the eye."
(Matthew 6:22)


On a December morning, many years ago, I brought a young, injured black-backed gull home from the beach.  It was, in fact, Christmas morning, as well as bitter cold, which may account for my act. Injured gulls are common; nature’s maw receives them again implacably; almost never is a rescue justified by a return to health and freedom. And this gull was close to that deep maw; it made no protest when I picked it up, the eyes were half-shut, the body so starved it seemed to hold nothing but air.

You can continue reading one version of the essay HERE.
Discuss

What do you notice when you read this essay? What words and phrases stand out?
What does it make you see? Hear? Feel? Smell? Taste?
What images does it show you?
What emotions and meanings come out of those images?
What big abstract ideas, thoughts and feelings can you pull out? (longing, grief, love)
 
Image Bank Prep 

Images create meaning/meanings create images. Concrete sensory images can conjure up the abstract, and we can generate visceral material out of abstract thoughts and feelings. We’re going to experiment with this concept/practice for a while.

Image Banking is a material generating activity I love, learned from writer and theater maker Dwayne Blackaller, that can draw up tons of fodder for stories, poems, essays, plays, anything, through mass producing images based on abstract words. What images can you pull out of the word “hope”? Things you can see, feel, tangibly, scenes created. A single strip of white cloud over a turbulent ocean, perhaps. 
 
Image Banks 
 
Have a timer ready.
Give yourself an abstract word. Have a list of them ready, perhaps.
Words like love, war, fear, laughter, joy, hurt, ugly, violence, hope...
Announce the word to yourself or a group.
No need to write the word down.
Instead, spend 3-5 minutes writing on each word.
Write images based on that words. Tons of images. Whatever comes.
Images you can feel smell taste touch hear.
Could be one huge image all detailed out, based on one abstract word. 
Could be a mix of several one after the other, tiny phrases.
Or a mix.
Don't think think about them. Let your gut do the thinking. Keep your hand moving. 

When each timer goes off, give yourself a new word, and start the timer again.
Then write a new bank of images, right after the last one.
It's better not to show deliberate spaces between each section of images. 
Better to make it one full text, all these images colliding.
BUT: Leave one free space in the middle, anywhere.

Again: Write without thinking, without stopping, keep hand moving.
If it makes you react physically, great – push into that image more.
 
When done, write one true thing in that free space.
Whatever that means to you. Don't think about that much, either.
What is true for you right now?
 
Share 
 
Are you brave enough to share this whole piece in full with a friend?
If you're alone, read it aloud to yourself. 
Pay attention to what what you hear.
What makes you react physically?
Notice those aloud, exact words and phrases.
Mark those in your first draft. 

The one true thing is important.
Adding something true in our writing, even if it’s fiction, makes it sing with heat.
 
Extract 
 
Now, read back over your image banks.
Your image writing from the beginning, too.
Find three statements that really make you react.
The most powerful, risky, vulnerable perhaps.
It’s okay if it’s more than three, but keep it five or less.
 
Rewrite 
 
Now, take those 3-5 statements and begin creating something new.
A poem. A story. An essay. A play. A crossword puzzle. Anything.
Don’t worry about it being good or making sense. Do what your gut impulse wants.
You can improve on the statements you made, revise them.
But try to get all those 3-5 underlined images in this new piece, to connect it.
Make them sing together.
 
Share
 

Share anything you’ve written today.
Share it with a friend. With a neighbor.
Make it into something you can share with the world. 

Or even read aloud to yourself. And notice: 
What do you hear in this? What is meaningful? What images hits you hardest?
 
Closing
 
Thank you for taking time out of your day to write with me.
My gratitude goes to all of you.
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